Not Tough but Not so Easy: After a very long time, I wanted to write something. Not that, I really had some great topic to write about, but just my heart was filled up to the level, that I wanted to pour something on paper so that it reaches to its normal state. And guess what, the topic which came first in my mind was “suicide”. May be it’s the effect of the news channels which are endlessly showing recent suicide news of famous TV actor which got stuck in my mind or may be subconsciously or deep down even I believe that it’s the best possible way to end all your problems when life gets out of your control. Though I assume that I am very strong person and can deal with any positive or negative situation but that’s the cruelty of the life, it attacks you most severely when you are at your best and leaves you devastated, making you the weakest person on this planet, too weak to put even one foot step ahead, making the atmosphere too suffocating to breathe, and with every single breath making it even more suffocating, giving you no choice but to end your own breathing. I am not the right person to judge what is right or what is wrong .I can’t even say that the person who committed suicide was weak or selfish or running away from the problems instead of facing them, because I will never understand what exactly he was going through when he took this extreme step. Buddha had rightly said that "There is only misery in this world”. Yes, nobody is really happy. Everyone is dealing with some or other problem on daily basis. You can think sometimes, why only I am the one who is suffering this much and others look very happy but in reality the others are dealing with the problems, probably you can’t even understand. Yes, Life is not easy, everyone knows it. But let me tell you it’s the same with the death. Who said that the person who kills himself is weak? God, no!!! It takes a lot of courage, lot of guts to stop your own blood flowing. It’s not the easy way out. When you take the bottle of poison in your hand and try to swallow it in one go and then suddenly realize you will never be able to raise the glass of chill beer with your friends, or when you reach to the terrace of multistory building to jump high and then suddenly you imagine your mom at the terrace of the house waiting to see you soon, it kills you from inside before you actually kill yourself. You feel numb. Not knowing what to do, where to go or how to overcome this. At one point you start feeling probably life is easier than death. But unfortunately not everybody thinks the same. They become impatient and want the quick fix of their problems, and they are so desperate to get the solution that death is left as only option. So claiming that only cowards are the one who go this far, doesn’t sound right to me. I think, at the end, what matters is your choice. Your own choice of choosing life over death or vice versa. It’s not exactly about which one is easier to face as both demands some level of courage. It’s about your priority, your idea of solving any issue. Its definition of your own personality of dealing with this world. Closing their eyes can be symbol of night for some whereas few are working even in the starry nights to make their livelihood. Few can live only in isolation claiming that it’s their life and they can do whatever they want to do with it, whereas few believe in togetherness , their lives revolve around others and they understand that their one action can impact the lives of others around them . But the matter of the fact is, if you get a wound in your finger, you don’t cut your full hand to avoid the pain. But probably you will get your finger operated. Similarly if you get a problem in one front of your life you can’t end your entire life just to avoid one problem but you work towards operating that problem in your life. We discussed about the cruelty of life, but about the beauty of life I can say when it closes one door it opens up 100 more doors. It depends on you weather you are able to see that or not. More than the actual problem it’s the chemical complications in the brain which makes it even more problematic. Our brain, nobody knows if it’s servant or master. You act the way, the brain tells you or you tell your brain to think the way you want to act. I don’t know. But I think it’s important to take the control of your brain before it completely takes you in your control and leaving no option for you but just follow it. Through my past experiences I have learned that when you take control of your own life and slowly and steadily start working towards your problems, the kind of pleasure you get at the end is immense. You feel strong. You feel power in your hands, your legs most importantly in your brain. Yes, the process is tough, you may feel giving it up for once and all, but darling, believe me it’s still easier than the quick fix. It’s your own responsibility how you come out with the situation and according to me best solution is talk, talk and talk. Be inclusive of others in your life. Share and learn. Make new friends, reengage with old ones. Friends are the best medicine for any kind of illness. They have this super power of understanding. I am not saying they will solve your problems as it’s in your and only your hands, but the best part of being with friends is you know that you can talk to them for hours and hours and they can listen you endlessly. As I said, it’s the choice at the end. So I just hope everyone decides on their choices wisely. Amen